Sicky

Hey hey hey so another week has come and gone, time is going by so fast it is so crazy! i am on the second to last week of my forth transfer and i have been in lake charles for almost six months! cray cray but anyway i love you all so much and i am glad to hear that all is well becasue i slept for one hour last night and i figured it must be because something was wrong. so hopefully yall arent hiding anything from me.

mon- the elders were being dumb so we just stayed in our apartment and then they showed up and wanted haircuts right as we were leaving for a dinner appt. but i am working on my christ like attributes so i cut elder yeates hair, even tho i really didnt want to. haha but we had dinner with a member man and his LA wife. they are super nice and we had a good talk. we cant figure out why she is LA cause she talked about the church and how much she liked it the whole time. haha then we had an appt with bonnie but when we got to her house our pamphlet we left was in the door and she wrote a note that said she didnt want to talk to us anymore and sorry but then she opened the door to let her dog out when we were still standing there so then she had to talk to us. haha but she just said that we would be wasting our time because she is going to stay catholic even if God told her to change religions. so yeah, got dropped. then we had to drive to orange and we spent the night so we could go to our meeting in the morning.

tue- we had to be in vidor at 6;15 and there were five girls in one apartment so it was pretty tricky all getting ready in the morning. haha but our zone Conference with Elder Golden was AMAZING!!!  he is a really cool guy and he just told us a bunch of random stuff about how we could be better missionaries. one thing that he talked alot about was how our personal righteousness= faith. we show our faith and improve our faith by our personal righteousness, that was an interesting thing that i had never thought about before. but it has helped me. THen we had a leadership meeting and the whole time Elder Golden just talked about the priesthood and he said that the reason why elders serve for 24 months and sisters for 18 is because missions help you mature and sisters are mature and spiritually ready after 18 months but it takes the elders a little longer. I wish elder yeates was in that meeting to hear that! haha But our meetings were really nice and it was a good day. Then that night i stayed in orange with sister erickson and sister Germer cause we were on exchanges. i was really nervous and i didnt want to go! but i put on my big girl pants and sucked it up. and everything went well untill that night when we were getting ready for bed and erickson asked how long it took for ALL (we only had two and they were ones that the elders gave us when they had to change areas) of our gators to drop us after she left. And so i answered and was like we were only working with two? and she was like well I guess only i was working with them cause you did nothing. Ohhhhhhhh no you did'nt. I was so mad. i had to get up and go in the bathroom for a while to cool down. but its whatevs. im over it.

wed- i was in orange all day and didnt really do anything. it reminded me of my first two transfers. then we switched back and we went to dinner with sister Gibson one of only two black ladies in our ward. she is so awesome! i love her so much. she is the one that we helped her clean her school bus. we had a good talk with her about how she joined the church but she gets frustrated cause the missionaries have only ever took her to black investigators and so she told us that if her testimony is good for black ppl its good for white ppl too! so we are going to hopefully take her out with us sometime.

thu- I woke up and i felt like i got hit by a bus. my voice was gone and i had a fever and My head was going to explode i was so conjested. so i stayed in bed and then our DL came over and gave me ablessing and made me some soup and they talked to us for awhile cause they thought it was pretty funny that i didnt have a voice. Then we had an appt with Gloria and Roger so we went to that and sister Barton just had to teach cause i couldnt talk. and then we came home and i layed down for awhile and then i got up agian to do the HOP and sister Barton had to talk to whole time for that too. Then we had Michaels new member lesson with the morris's and susan. I was sad casue i love those so much and i wasnt feeling good so i was out of it the whole time. But It was good. Michael is still doing awesome!

fri-I still felt pretty poopy but my voice was kinda back so we went out and taught a bunch of potentials and we got two new Gators! Robyn and Destiny! Then we had dinner with the Kenneys and we had a scary night! We are supposed to have daily contact with our Gators so we decided to go check on Gloria and Roger. so they live in the projects so #1 scary thing we were in the projects kinda later in the evening. so we got to there house and Roger was outside so he came over and started apologizing to us because he was "under the influence" and had been drinking cause he was mad at his mom. so we were like ok well is gloria here? and she wasnt so we were going to leave but then he started almost crying and was like i need to pray with yall. so we stood there on the grass and prayed with him and then he started getting all creepy and was calling me pretty eyes and was trying to get us to come in his house and was like im not going to hurt you dont you trust me and then there were all these other creepy guys that were walking around outside making cat calls at us so finally we were just like you know what roger we have to go and we jumped in the car and as we were leaving he was like you didnt even talk to me about first nephi and i even read it like you told me to. but it was just too creepy so we had to leave. sister Barton was so mad at me. haha

sat- we went to visit alot of ppl! we visited alot of LA members then we did some service with little Suzie and then we had an appt with a potential but she wasnt home so we went home and had dinner and then we went to visit a member who is having a hard time and had a good talk with her and then we had an appt with a kind of potential. this man we met siad we could come back and talk about God with him and his wife. His name is terrance and when we were talking we were blown away! he is a mormon he just doesnt know it! he was raised catholic but he doesnt agree with some stuff and everything he was saying was stuff that we believe it. it was so awesome and they want us to come back and talk to their sons. so that was pretty cool. we didnt get to teach them so i asked if we coudl come back and "practice" our teaching on them and they said they would love that. so that will be good. Terrance will prlbably be the bishop when i come back to visit! haha

sun- Gloria came to church! she is so cute. she loved it but she had surgery thursday so she went home after sunday school cause she wasnt feeling good and her surgery spot started bleeding. but she loved it and wants to come back! Then we had a mish broadcast from salt lake which was really good. it was alot about members becasue members are the real missionaries we are just here to help. pres monson siad that "now is the time for the members and the missionaries to labor together in the lords vinyard, doing the lords work, Joseph smith said, after all that is said and done the most important work is to preach the gospel." It made me so excited to be a member missionary so yall better get to work finding ppl for the missionaries to teach! this gospel is so amazing and we need to be Bold and talk about it often and to everyone we come into contact with! For i am not ashamed of the Gospel of Christ! Be bold, do something out of your comfort zone! invite someone to church. now is the time that we need to step it up and bring souls unto christ. I love you all so much and i am so grateful for yall and the support that you give me. Dont worry about me, i have the gospel, worry about all of Gods children out there who do not have it. I love you! have a good week!

Blacktism is no more. . .

Well This week has probably been one of the longest weeks yet! sister barton and i cant figure it out, why is dragged on so much. it started out really bad and we were so depressed, but we worked hard and pushed thru it and it ended up being a pretty good week. lots of tracting and knocking in the heat but its good for us.

 mon- we went and taught Gloria and Rose came with us. Gloria's son Roger sat in on the lesson too. It went really well and they were very open with there comments and they were really into the lesson. it was awesome! and the spirit was tehre so strong! i think that was the best lesson we have ever taught. i t was awesome!

tue- we had an appointment with michelle and we also needed keishas permission slip signed becasue they were leaving for girls camp that day. so we went over and noone was home and when we called michelle one of her kids answered the phone and said that her mom was busy but she wanted us to call this number so we called it and it was the dad and he just started yelling at us and told us not to come over ever again and to quit calling. and that they had heard horrible things about the church and they didnt want to be a part of it. and that keisha would not be going to camp. then he hung up. so that was heart shattering! michelle was doing so good! she was excited to be baptized and sister trahan bought keisha everything she needed for camp! it was so sad. so we called sister clifford and told her. and then she called basically the whole ward so we had millions of ppl calling us and asking what was going on. it was so sad. Then we did some tracting and we helped rose move for awhile and then we had dinner with crystal and then dinner with the trahans and then michales new member lessons with susan and the morris'. it was a crazy time! but michael has really good comments sometimes. he told us about our family and why they dropped us. he is really smart sometimes. haha

wed- we finally got ahold of savannah after a couple of weeks and her major freak out. she said we could come over so we went and we were over there for almost three hours! she just kept going on and on about the randomest things. she is trying to find problems in the BOM everywhere! i think its becasue she knows its true but she isnt ready to take that step and make the changes in her life necessary and she doesnt like the way we worship so she is trying to convince herself that it is not true. which is so hard because everytime we teach her she is in tears so you know that she is feeling the spirit but if she choosed to deny it there is nothing we can do. then we went to visit deborah and we met with our homeless man at the library and taught him. he said the only way he would join the church is if God gave him a new set of teeth, cause he is kinda athiest at the moment. so that was interesting. then we did more tracting and then we had dinner withthe morris' they are alot of fun. and they help us out aton.

thu- we had lunch with sister stott. she is so funny! she was telling us to put deodorant all over our bodies and on our faces. it was pretty funny. its been so hot here lately that you just sweat no matter what so there is really no point. everyone just stinks. then we had to go have our car checked out cause a bunch of lights were on and that took awhile then we went and taught Bonnie and she said she would never change from being catholic but she will. she just doesnt know it yet. then we did our hour of power and then more tracting. it was a tracty tract day.

fri- we had district meeting and when we were at lunch Gail called and left a message and told us not to send anyone to pick him up cause he didnt want to go to church anymore and he would call us when he was ready. so all uf us went over tthere to see him and tellhim that he needs to keep coming to church. so he agreed as long as sister barton and i picked him up. he is so funny. poor little gail. he was so depressed cause he feels like we abandoned him and that we only cared about our gators and not him anyomore. then we went and helped rose move again and then we went and saw gloria cause she just got out of the hospital and Roger asked for a BOM and they are still interested in what we are teaching, but we didnt teach them cause we wanted a member withus and we didnt have time casue we had to meet the ZL at the church cause they came to blitz our area. so they went to try and find this referral that we got and we went to tract. so we talked to alot of ppl and got alot of potentials and we had a really good talk with this one guy and he said that we can come back and teach him andhis wife. so that was really cool. then we met back up with the ZL and they found a couple ppl too that said we could come back andthey found us a new gator. and we had an appt with her the next day. 

sat- we went to visit a LA and we had a good talk with her, she  siad she tries to come to church but she falls asleep. then we had our appt with our new gator but she wasnt there. so that was sad. then we went and helped susan. we cleaned her shower and i inhaled some nasty nast cleaner and my lungs have been on fire ever since. whenever i take a deep breath i cough aton. but it was so fun! cute little susan. she is so funny. she is the new ward chorister and she loves it! she has a really good voice so everyone can hear here and everyone was complimenting her to us last week. haha it was funny.  then we had a dinner with a LA man and his catholic wife that we had never met before but they were super nice and they love the missionaries and used to feed them all the time. so we had a good time with them and we had a good talk about religion and such. they are very spiritual. then we went to check on some LA and noone was home so we did some tracting.

sun- we went and got Gail and it was crazy. i was pushing him and i started coughing so i let go with one of my hands and he vered to the right and crashed into the curb. haha it was sad but it was so funny! then sister barton took over and then she crashed him into the curb too. hahah then all the sudded there was this kitten in Gail's wheel and it was about to get crushed by this 500 pound man in his wheel chair! so i picked it up and tried to make it go away but it kept coming back so i must have liked gail, but he hates cats. I told him he needed to say hi to the kitty so he just waved and siad hi. he is so funny. i pushed him home and we had a good talk about the holy ghost. We visited the conners after church and they are doing better health wise but still notcoming to church. they need friends at church casue they dont have anyone to talk to so i think they are not very motivated to go. its really sad. then we had dinner with president newton and his family and that was good. then we went and taught gloria and Roger and finished L1 they are so awesome! they told us that they pray for us all the time and thank god for sending us to them. they are so cute. i love them. they are both really into what we are teaching them and they are oging to start praying about it. Then we went and took Cookies to Rod for fathers day and had a little chat with them. they are so cute. they are my lake charles family. I love them. Oh yeah i forgot to tell you that we are having elder Golded from the 70 speak to us tomorrow that will be cool! and i am going on exchanges with sister erickson, so that will be really interesting. wish me luck! haha

This was a hard week with our gators dropping us. we are not teaching anyone that we were teaching last transfer. we have had to start over from the beginning. we had the most success tracting this week so that was good. hopefully we can get some new gators out of all the potentials. i know that the lord prepares those who are ready, and i guess that those we were teaching were just not ready for the gospel yet. but we did alot fo prep work for the missionaries who will come after. The work is hard and sometimes i want to give up and cry cause it seems like everyone doesnt want anything to do with us, but i know that it is all part of the work and when we get to have a good day and teach a lesson it makes it all worth it. Gloria and Roger are keeping me going. And i am so thankful that we are able to be teaching them. I hope you all had a good week and that lacrosse is going good. Love you all so much! have a good week :)

sisters....nobody likes them

Well this week was pretty rough. . . but i am not going to complain too much because everything happens for a reason and obviously there is something we need to be learning from this experience. I have had emotional overload this week and I cant even count the number of times that i have cried. Sometiems i am a baby but you just gotta get it out. it feels good to cry. But there are miracles in everyday, even if they werent finding 10 new investigators or teaching 6 member present lessons, they are miracles non the less. That helps me get thru to the next day, when i look back and find the good in the day. it makes it seem not as bad.

Mon- the elders are so dumb. they are obsessed with us going to watch them play sports on pday so we get nothing done, its annoying. so today we are not hanging out with them. But i made them do the kool-aid challenge that was pretty funny. I barfed so i lost but it was fun. then we went to meet these ppl that sister bartons aunt and uncle are best friends with casue they used to like in lake charles. so that was interesting. they arent really opent o the gospel but we are going to work on it. we had dinner with our favorite family in the ward casue they are moving! its really sad. but it was good.

tue- we are trying to contact all the LA in our area so we went to alot of houses and hardly anyone was home. we went to one guys house and talked to his wife who is a non member. they have 8 ppl living in the house and they are all from nepal, so there was indian music playing real loud up in there house, then she fed us this stuff she made, it was really interesting but she was super nice and she says she is going to talk to all the other ppl and get there permission to have us come back. Its her husbands mom, dad, grandma and grandpa and brother that live there with them. what a happy family. then we had dinner with maw maw jones my favorite person ever. what a cutie. she was telling us all about her missionary work she is doing and how it makes her sad when her friends dont want to come to church with her. andhow when someone hurts her she is going to hurt them back and tell them she wont go to their church! haha we gave her a BOM and challenged her to give it to someone that she prayed about and felt like she should give ti to them. She told us yesterday that she already gave ti to someone! she is so awesome. Then we went to visit rose and Gloria casue rose wasnt at church and we ended up mowing glorias lawn in our skirts oh and they live in the ghetto so we had lots of G's driving past or walking past laughing at us. hahah it was a good memory. lots of fun.

wed- we had a lesson with carl, i dont know if i told you about him or not but susan came with us. what a cutie. she loves coming out with us. we didnt get to say anything the whole time. we maybe said 5 words and he just talked about all this evidence that the BOM is true which is good but he needs to have a testimony of it not just know that it isnt a fake book. and he told us that we need to go find other ppl that need jesus, he already has jesus so he is good. it was frustrating cause we both felt so prompted to knock on his door. so we are still trying to figure out what we are supposed to do with him. Then we went to mama fruge and deborah and then did some tracting. nothing too eventful happened.

thu- We had a really good weekly planning and then we went to michelles house to try and meet with her but she wasnt home and we were all scared caseu we thought that she was just avoiding us. then we tried to go teach elizabeth but she wasnt home either so we tracted alot and it was raining so that was fun. i love the rain. we only found one girl who siad we could come back. so hopefully something will come of that. Then we did our HOP with Bro adams and bro ortiz they are the cutest best friends. Bro ortiz is amazing. he is here working and his family is back in mexico. he dosent know english very well but he is trying. he was telling us about how he has to pray to have the strength to go to church every week even tho he doesnt understand hardly anything that anyone is saying. it was really sad. but i am amzed by the strength of converts to the church. they go to churh all alone and they dont have any family to go with them but they go every week becaseu they know that this church is true and they know that they need the power of the spirit in thier lives everyday. We taught a lesson during HOP but the guy said that he isnt ready to slow down yet but when he is he would be interested in our church. but it was a good lesson. 

fri- we had zone meeting and sister erickson is in my zone now. so that was awkward. i didnt know what to say to her and it was just weird. we went to see rose after and she is moving so we helped her pack a litle and then went to glorias but she was about to take a nap so we went to keithas andhad a good lesson with her. then we had dinner witha family inthe ward and then we went to kizzas and she told us not to come back. I was really hurt. I felt like i had such a good connection with her and that we really understood each other. I had put alot of time and effort and prayer into that relationship and then she was just rude and slammed the door in our faces. i was really hurt. It was a hard day. I broke down and just cried all night. i dont even know why. I have just been super frustrted lately and the only thing that would help is to cry. so i did. hahah 

sat- we did some service for susan and dug out her living room so that she could actually use the couches and vaccumed the floor. i love susan she is so funny.  then we taught a lesson to a referral that we got and hopefully we can keep teaching her. then we went to see crystal and then susan and her family took us out to dinner. then we went to find michelle and she was home and let us in and told us that she has been waiging for us to come back and that she missed us. so that was weird casue she would t answer our phone calls and wasnt home whenever we went over. so that was a relief and she still wants to be baptized she asked us about it. 

sun- well sunday was "everyone bash the sisters day" it was rough. i hated it. so bad. in correlation mtg bro clifford started yelling at us cause i guess keisha is texting his wife non stop and is freaking her out. I was so mad. its not our fault. we only asked sister clifford to give keisha a ride twice and everything else that she has done was of her own free will. Keisha is the oldest of 9 kids and she is basically raising them. she gets no attention and she just needs somwone who loves and cares about her. Sister clifford went and bought her a ton of stuff with sister trahan and then would call her everyday and ask if she was still going to camp so she was the one who started it and then all the sudden its out fault? yeah i was so mad. and then he was all like my wife is not going to do anything for you ever again. im not going to let her. so then we had to find another ride for keisha and her sister to come to church. then elder yeates started making all these comments about how girls shoudlnt go on misisons casue its a mans job and that he would have done things so much better. i had to leave the room or i would have beaten him to a pulp. Then in ward council everyone was bashing on us too about the same thing. Ok we are sorry that our investigators like to call you and talk to you. that is totally our fault. let us just fight all your battles for you. then elder yeates went off again. and then when the meeting was over and we were leaving he turns around and is like i need a hair cut tomorrow so you need to be at the church. yeah right. i was so mad i just left. ahhhhhh i had steam coming out of my ears i was so mad. I think i have anger issues. Then we went and had lunch with sister matheson, she is so awesome. i love her. Then we found some LA and set up appts with them. so sthat was good. 

Oh i forgot what day it was but it rained alot and we got stuck in some mud and we said a prayer and then we found this guy who helped us get out! it was a miracle. The biggest one of the week. Michelle and her family are hard to work with cause they dont want to come to church but they want to get baptized. But atleast we have them to work with. I am glad for the hard weeks casue then i appreciate the good ones even better. Michael rides his bike or walks 30 miles to church every sunday. what an amazing guy. If he is crazy i dont care because he is dedicated to the gospel and i dont know many ppl who would walk 30 miles in this weather to go to church. I am so grateful for the gospel and expecially the book of mormon. it is such an amazing book that i always took for granted. my testimony of it is growing more and more every day as i watch it help ppl change their lives and come closer to christ. I am so grateful for the gospel! i love being a missionary and even tho i am always sweaty i am learing to love it. I lvoe you all and i miss you so much! thanks for all the prayers. i love you! have a good week!

the week after

Well i am trying to be positive and upbeat about my time as a missionary becaseu i really do love it and i love being here but i have to be honest a little and tell you the truth. This week sucked. And we decided that it is becaue we had a baptism last week so now we are going to face opposition. But we still had miracles happen and good things still happened. it was just a really sad week and hopefully we can get on the rebound soon!

I think i told you last week about monday and a little bit about tuesday but tuesday morning elder limb came and said goodbye to us and went to get transfered. it was really sad. We ahd to pray so hard for charity for him at the first that we really got attached to him and really love him so it was hard to have him leave. Then we went and got our tire fixed cause we ran over a nail and then we emailed and we had a lesson with savannah and we gave her a nice BOM D&C and Pearl book that was really big print so she could read it easier and we had a BOM lesson. it was the worst lesson ever! our member went off and the spirit was not there at all! it was so bad! then we went to check on some LA's and everyone works here so noone is ever home. then that night we had michaels first new member lesson. it was crazy. he will never stop talking and goes off about the randomest things. in his prayer he thanked heavenly father for me that i could be there to harrass him. he is a nerd.

wed- we had a lesson with michelle but she cancled and we even had a member coming with us! it was really sad. then we went to this families house that wanted us to come over cause they are having a hard time and they wouldnt even let us in! they turned us away. so that was frustrating. then we checked on some LA's and we got yelled at by this guy cause he doesnt want to be a mormon anymore. it was sad. then we met out new DL and they gave us some more BOMS casue we were out. and it was really weird. I didnt get a good first impression of him. then we met with deborah and we rode our bikes there and we almost died cause it was so hot. and then my head almost got ripped of by atree and really hurt my neck and then to top it all off when we were talking to deborah she called me fat! haha it was a really good day. We had dinner with the reynolds and then we had a less on with jared but that got cancled too so we just wnet tracting.

thu-savannah called us and was really upset. she was reading the BOm from the beginning and she got caught up on the indtoduction where it talkes about the changes that were made that SEEM appropriate.  we met with rose and her friend was supposed to come but we couldnt find her. so we just taught rose which was good. she is really sweet. then we met with sister harper who hasnt been talking to us for about two months. so that was good. she made us cookies cause she thought we would be mad that she had been ignoroing us. haha what a nut. then we had an appt with the lady we met a coupell weeks ago during HOP but she wasnt home. so we just tracted her area and we found this sweet little old lady names bonny that let us in and talked to us forever and we are going to start teaching her. she was really excited to have us come back. she has the cutest little puppy that looks like a fox and is named foxy. haha then we had dinner with my favorite person brother boise. he is so cute. then we went to do our HOP and hardly anyone was home and the people that were home didnt want to talk to us. so that was pretty sad. then we went to some LA's homes and none of them were home either so we did more tracting.

fri-it was POURING RAIN. i love it when it rains cause then it is not hot. so since it was the end of the month we were totally out of miles so we decided that we would walk to the church for district meeting. it had stopped raining so we figured we were safe but as soon as we got outside of our apartment gate it started dumping agian. and by the time we could have got back to our apartment we would have been soaked so we just decided to keep walking. so we walked to the church in the pouring rain. its about a mile walk so not bad at all and it was actually relaly fun. and i would much rather be soaking wet with rain then with my own sweat which is what it has been the last week. i looked like shmeegal by the time we got to the church. it was funny. then after DM and lunch we went back to the church to do training all together and i almost killed elder weeks our new DL. we were talking and getting to know him and he was all like so i need some help form you sisters. so my sister is thinking about going on a mission, but she is writing this missionary right now and they are in love so she doesnt want to leave and he will come back before her, he is serving in denver or something, i dont even know somewhere in colorado. and then elder gilbert was like whats his name? and weeks was like i dunno it starts with a B and Gilbert was like Elder Bolles? and weeks was like wait how did you know that? and i guess my face was pretty funny cause weeks was all laughing and like ahhhh you should have seen your face. So they think its funny to make fun of me and they planned that the other night. what little turds. im glad they think they are funny. so after that was all over i now have to pray for charity towards elder weeks. we did alot more tracting and then we had dinner with the conners and brother conners was in the ICU for 4 days and they didnt even tell anyone so that we could help them! little stinkers. but he is doing better now. then brother Trahan and brother Clifford came over to move the dryer from the old elders apt in to ours casue ours is broken and we would just walk over there and use is but brother Trahan didnt want us to have to do that so he just came and moved it for us. What a little  Shweety! Then he gave us this plate of cookies and the VT message to take to this LA lady that sister trahan is supposed to VT but they couldnt find her house and there son is coming home from his misison today so she was pretty busy. so we went to find this LA and she was so excited to see us! she said that she hadnt been to church for 12 years but she had been thinking about it lately and was wanting to cme back and thenwe showed up. so we had a good talk with her and she introduced us to her daughter and they are super nice. she siad she was going to come to church and she gave us her number so we can go back and visit. so that was really cool. the first LA that we have foudn that is actually excited to see us. haha then we did some tracting.

sat- we did service for the reynolds. it was really fun. the sulphur elders came with us and we dug out all this grass and made a flower bed. sister reynolds is so cute. she was asking us about eating with the elders casue we arent allowed to so she was like well can you do service together or do i have to seperate you? and we said no we can do it together its fine. so you can do service together but you cant eat together? well thats relaly crazy. Well can you have a snack together then? we said yeah i guess, then she said a fried chicken snack? haha so we had a fried chicken "snack" after we were done. they are the cutest little couple and they take such good care of us. then we went to contact a referral and she only wanted a bible but we are going to try and teach her when we go back to give her a bible. then we did some more tracting and tracting then we had a appt with michelle but she cancled again and they moved! so we couldnt even just show up to there house. so we found Gails wife who is LA and talked to her for a while but she WILL NOT come back to church. so that was sad. then we did more tracting and we were walking on this street and travis former investigator)drove past us. then we decided to go on this one street and we were just knocking houses that we felt like we should. so sister barotn and i both had the impression that we needed to knockn on this one house so we went and knocked and the guy who lived there is a former investigator and he was so excited to have us back. Hooked and Decker were teaching him but they kinda gave up. so we are trying to decide what we need to do and why we were prompted to knock his door. his name is carl and he is an amazing artist. travis texted us for the first time in months and was like. i seen yall out exercising. it was pretty funny. he still isnt ready for us to come back. he is relaly busy with work. but he is still friendly. then we had an appt with kizza but she wouldnt let us in.

sun- it was pouring rain again. i love it! its so flooded and wet. which makes the misquitoes even worse. we had lunch with the cliffords and sister clifford has beenhelpping us alot with keisha but now michelle is being weird and wont let her go to yw and isnt talking to us and they moved. so that is really sad. our miracle family is having a hard time. then we did more tracting and all the sudded i had the strongest feeling that we needed to go check on the Varner family even tho we hadnt seen them in months. so we went over there and we talked to james for almost 2 hours. he is relaly sad casue he believed what the elders were teaching him and he wanted his family to learn but they like there other church and dont want to talk to us. but we had a good talk with james and he was really happy to see us. i love him so much. he is so funny. he just grabbed me and gave me the biggest bear hug. whoops. haha he wants us to come back and visit him when we are in the area and he asked us to pray for him cause he is trying to quit smoking. he is such a good guy. i am really sad that his family doesnt want the gospel.

I have thought alot about the week and why it went so bad. i dont know why all of our investigators are having a hard time.so savannah hung up on SEEM and she says thet Bom must not be true if changes were made that SEEM appropriate. so that was sad. and she isnt talking to us now.

And how i have been thinking about tis week. we are here to bring people closer to christ. that doesnt always meen baptisms. we have helped multiple people come closer to christ even tho they didtn get baptized. we are planting seeds. i was telling sister barton how sad i am that james and his family arent going to join the church and she made a good point, she said that i made an impact on his life and he will now look at mormons in a good way becasue of how i treated him. It is really hard to just have to go around and plant seeds all the time when you want to be harvesting, but as long as we are working hard and helping others come closer to christ we are doing our job. I love being a missionary. it is the hardest think i have ever done and it hurts my heart more then anything i have ever done. but i am learning how to love unconditionally and to love those that are hard to love. I never thought i would be able to love as many people as i do now. my heart is full and every night i pour out my sould in gratitude to my heavenly father for blessing me with the opportunity to meet and work with the pelple that i am. I Know this church is true with all that i am and i am so blessed to be able to help bring sould unto christ. I lvoe you all and i am so grateful for my amazing family that supports me and brings me up when i am having a hard time. I lvoe you all and hope you have a good week!